Lisa Welvaarts: "I can not point out the first time I referred to as a "muse". I think the relationship between Ana and myself, like I experienced it, had many different stages. I do remember the first time we met. Outside, on a sunny day.
Alongside the development of a beautiful friendship we kind of developed an artistic connection. Based on a deep shared interest, I just couldn‘t get to know enough about her works. Also as people we have a lot in common and also many differences. But there are some main role players that are crucial in this artistic relationship, muse-artist. We are both in appearance very noticeable, in a way very feminine. In character we both have very strong ideas about the word around us. We are in this sense very ‚strong‘ and we know what we want. On the other hand, we are both very sensible to emotions of ourselves and others which could be seen as fragile. And last but not least we are both strongly in touch with the sexual aspect of the human being. We could say, sexually emancipated in a way that also connects us to each other and as a concept, influences Ana‘s work.
At one point we had to put an end to this story or define it as the beginning of a new story. With the knowledge that I was leaving Weimar soon, we both felt the need to have an image of us together. This developed in a work that doesn‘t only capture us thru image but also captures our relationship and emotions.
I see my own insecurities together with the freedom Ana gave me. To see myself as a muse is very difficult. When I close my eyes and think of a muse I imagine a white women, almost a goddess, on a pedestal. I don‘t really know how Ana sees me but I have never felt this kind of weird hierarchy in our relationship. There was no high versus low, no active versus passive. To be in Ana‘s life as well as her friend, model and muse is the greatest gift life has ever given me. Before we met I had already loved and hated, experienced health and sickness, learned and forgotten. But I had never experienced this strong feeling of a shared positive energy influencing two individuals.
It doesn‘t matter how much Ana means to me or how much I mean to her. I know I can never be what I want to be for her. She will always, as well as other many artists, feel a lot of pain. She will suffer because nothing will ever be enough. And I will always try to make her happy because her smile is my sun and I can never truly accept that she needs her tears too. To be Ana‘s muse feels like drinking a distilled and concentrated form ofher personal and artistic energy. It tastes bitter-sweet".
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The muse has a mysterious and fascinating power to the artist, to the point where she/he begins to imitate them unconsciously. This imitation and reflexive action are an attempt at self-exaltation. If I had to personalize the term, in my case, it would be attributed to Lisa Welvaarts.
Lisa represents everything I believe in, especially the beauty. She is a collection of moving pictures. She is a full-color bird, extremely light-filled, she releases musical notes from the pores of her skin and I am firmly convinced that her smile could divert a tank. She is warmhearted and her hair is the one Reincarnation of a campfire that protects you from the snow. Their white and pure movements are honest, and when they get ready to hug you, they make you fly. Is not only myself who is in love with her, even nature is due to this relationship of Lisa with the immensity; her soul makes it comparable with the sea and the sky. It fascinates me how the light flows over her skin and how her mouth moves when she laughs. Her long legs are the most graceful moving sculpture that my eyes ever have seen. Lisa balances my scales and fills everything with aphrodisiac smells that arouse my love of life.
I love her with the passion of a person that doesn't need to understand "why"?.